MY ROLES IN LIFE

Have you ever felt the feeling of being ignored? You feel so worthless and helpless in everything you do. When everyone around you don't see your value as a person even to those people who supposed to be with you all the time.

I know some time in your life, you felt being used and unappreciated at the same time; when they can only see your worth when they need you.

I've always been taken for granted. Honestly, sometimes i feel so clueless how I will deal with it the way it should be. I was once this person who desires nothing but to help in every possible way she could. Do everything she can just to make everyone around her happy. Been appreciated for a while but at the end of the day, she's still that person who is worthless in everything. "Well the last thing I remember, that's exactly how they make me feel; a worthless human being"

One day I just woke up and realized that I am all alone; no one is around me. I have no one that I could talk to so I always end up talking to myself. Being alone and/or living alone is not a joke! Your purpose in life will be questionable. I could not count how much I asked and blame myself for some reason I do not understand until now. No matter how hard I think, I can't imagine what could be the possible reason why I'm having this kind of life right now. So I asked God why? Am I not worthy enough? Am I really having that evil thing inside of me that's why nobody loved me the way I wanted to be?

God made me realize that all these things, I am actually doing towards Him. I took Him for granted because I know that no matter what I do He will not leave me nor forsake me. I always turn my back on Him after getting what I want. I'm not appreciating His works when the only thing He wants is to guide me, help me and be with me in every situation. I made Him invisible every time I feel that I am alone; And I questioned my life of being unloved when God actually loved me first before anyone else; even before I learn how to love Him back.

Now I want to ask myself again; What is my reason to complain? What is my reason to beg for someone's love and appreciation when I can get all these things directly from God? When He promised me that He will provide and give me everything more than the world could offer. This world will hate and pull you down but not the Lord who "wonderfully" made you in the first place.

Whatever situation you're facing today, the Lord is just waiting you to call Him. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

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